Tuesday, 13 December 2016

Where i'm at VS, Where i need to be.

Hi guys, I've definitely checked back in again in a more timely manner. 😉 I've just had some thoughts start to swirl around in my head that i thought i could share with you guys.

Basically, i feel like i'm having a flare up with my dysphagia at the moment. I did tell myself a while back that i will start seeing the ''professionals'' for it again in the new year. I guess with how physically uncomfortable I've been feeling of late, it's just intensified my desire to do as such again even more, so, that'll definitely be happening come next month.

Something i found interesting this evening though, is how i decided to google ''dysphagia.'' It made me realise that while i have this condition, i don't actually pay attention to the ins and outs of it. I have it, i feel how i feel and i just do what i can to get by and that's that.

It made me think. no, that's not the way i want to go about this anymore. If i really want my life to work better for what it is right now and to be able to have other things i want in my future, then i'm going to have to do a lot more than just ''do what i can to get by.''

This condition is tough no matter what and i don't know what things are going to look like for me later down the track but i at least want to be able to say that i'm trying, really trying to myself, for myself.

My head, my focus, it has been elsewhere for a lot of this year but i feel like to be thinking like this now, it shows me that i'm finding a space again, a space that i can use to pay my physical ''stuff'' attention again.

I know i'm going to find this all really tricky & disheartening at times as i have in the past but this is at least a starting point. The thoughts are there and i actually i have a referral to go back to a specialist I've seen a few times before.

So, I'll try and keep you guys in the loop as things start happening for me again in this regard. As per, feel free to leave a comment or get in touch with me personally.

Until next time,
Stay strong & be you.
~Karly 😊 xo


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